Chase your dreams

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Last year my horse mad 6 yr old Granddaughter asked me to do a painting of a unicorn for her 7th birthday present. I was a little nervous about a unicorn as my subject matter but what developed through the painting was a thought of what I would want her to know if I wasn’t around to tell her.
What would I say was important in life if I had to say it simply and clearly.
Life I believe is made of many highs and lows and you can never truly stop there being both in your life. To try to keep all bad things from happening, is like trying to hold back the tide.
No I would rather try to remember, that even when there are hard times, they can be survived and there will be good times again. Don’t get me wrong I am no Pollyanna I have seen or helped people through some dark times, but if you look for a dream,a hope that there will be better times you tend to find them. The first thing I would want to tell her is to chase her dreams, not in a corny go out kid and chase your dreams but in a clear know who you are and what you want in all parts of your life. So when things get tough you will have a path to follow to see the glimmer of hope. That can make all the difference when you are in the low points, knowing there is hope, when it is hard to see. That if you hold on to the dream of having a happy life you can create the reality and be happy chasing that dream. Why do I think this is a dream and not a goal? because goals have a deadline a finish date, achieve this goal by this date… etc, but our dreams tend to be things that are organic and change and move with us. One of my most important and cherished dreams is to have a happy fulfilled life and that is something I chase and achieve everyday.
It is not a goal that I will wait till the end to measure, nor is it a goal that has defined parameters, some times I am happy when I don’t get what I want. Because I got something or someone else and I am experienced enough to know I can respect the day as it is.

I wrote the key words of what I wanted for her to know in gold paint in the drips I deliberately let run off the paper. Because I think that is an important key to happiness. Finding the meaningful people and things in the mess or accidental moments. Then building your life on that foundation.

What do you think is important in life?

This painting and message was for her but if in some small way it is of use to you please take it and chase your dreams. xx Allie

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The words I wrote were these:

BE CREATIVE, in your own way.
Spend time with FRIENDS and those who love you, for they will strengthen you.
Always LOVE YOURSELF, not in a conceited way, but from your own truth and honesty.
Be quick to share LOVE everyone needs it, and it will not run out.
Free your IMAGINATION, it will not survive in constraints, not yours or others.
RESPECT all and everything will be your teacher and guide.
LEARN  from every mistake and from every situation and you will always see a gift you can take from it.
DREAM BIG, then put one foot after the other on your journey to get there.
THERE IS ONLY ONE YOU, don’t compare yourself to others, it waste your time and kill your courage.
FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS, especially when its hard, don’t give up. Ask for help, it will come.
MAGIC HAPPENS everyday, look for it and you will see it.
When others can’t see it for themselves give HOPE for when given, hope grows.

Above all remember everyday:
YOU ARE SPECIAL, and needed in this world.
YOU ARE LOVED,by many, let it start with yourself.
YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART,as I am in yours.
SO WE ARE NEVER ALONE.
XX Nana

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Find the pea!

copyright A.Simpson

copyright A.Simpson

Find the pea, round and round it goes…. where it will stop, nobody knows!
This post has been a long time in coming, why?
Because my life has become a little like the ‘pea under the coconut shell’ hussle game.
You know the one:
There is three upside down coconut shells and you have to find the pea under one, as they are shuffled around this way and that and back and forth to and fro.
Do you get the idea? 
That my friends is my life at the moment, or at least an accurate analogy.
I have been working towards my goals and then things get turned around switched back and forth and back to front.
Which leaves me frustrated and not achieving what I want to.
So what to do:
Option #1. I could throw my hands up and surrender to the problems I am facing.
Option #2. I could put all my energies into forging ahead.
The thing is I know I am not alone in this, countless others have their lives turned upside down and they try their best to cope.

Option #2.5. Actually it is realizing the majority of people have achieved most goals through adversity, if it was easy I don’t  think it would be a good (high) enough goal in the first place. By combining options 2 and 2.5 I may get there.

I think too often we see our own troubles and get lost in the problems we have,it’s easy to do as they can be all consuming. What I have discovered about myself, and you may relate, is that if I pay attention to others who are still moving forward despite adversity, I feel my problems become smaller and I keep myself from being too overwhelmed by issues that can and will be resolved.
When we try to reach for a distant goal, it means we have to travel to reach it and on the way you may see problems:
Health
Financial
Resource lack
Obstructive People
Time shortages
Sadness & Grief
Market issues
Ourselves
……..
The list could go on and on!
And it does you just need to believe in yourself and look to others who have made it past these trials.

Yesterday was my birthday, (June 15th) to me it marks mid year, and I take stock of what I have down so far.
Yes I may be behind on my goals, (being behind in post is one) but I’m still moving forward, despite the shells being moved again and I will get there.
Also the secret to finding the pea…is to bring your own!
Allie xx

Childhood Dreams

 

I was lucky, my childhood
was full of adventures and dreams.

Character draft for my story ' All the ways'

Character draft for my story ‘ All the ways’

 

High on my list was to one day have an artist studio.
As a child I would pour through art books amazed at all the paint smocked, artists working or lounging in their spacious but cluttered studios, and I thought thats it …. that’s what‘making it’ looks like.
In those still frame photographs I saw success.
Well in my defence, I was very young and for perspective, my other dream was to be Wonder Woman.
I was still at an age where the concept of success and reaching your goals was still black and white, and the myth of over-night success still had a footing. Was I right all thoes years ago? Childhood and indeed Adulthood dreams are what makes us unique and ready to strive out and conquer (face) the world (often that next bus ride to work). They are our the fuel spurring our motivation and helping us realise our daily, weekly and yearly goals and achievements. Now that I have grown up (well most of the time) I realise that sucess comes in many different forms and on multiple levels. Also that  goals are stepping stones in life , not the end destination. Also of course I know that over-night success is a complete and utter myth. Everyone who finds the sucess they are striving for has set out on that path way before we all noticed them (so not over-night then) But the 3rd most important discovery as an adult is that dreams do come true and that if you work/live smart enough, you will reach mile-stones in your life that make you happy and fulfil your wishes (no genie required, but can I still have a big blue one?) The 2nd most important discovery is that if you give all you can to every challenge and opportunity you will always enjoy the ride. As I sit in my still to be painted studio I realise that yes I was right this is what success feels like … a space to sit and dream. Whether it is a studio, a room, a chair or a park find you spot to sit and dream it is what success is all about. Oh yeah discovery #1 …. I Am WONDER WOMAN!

 

When your heart is breaking…

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At the start of 2014 I committed myself
to completing my creative career goals, nothing else would do.

To recap, it was to (self or otherwise) publish two of my children’s stories as picture books another as an e-book and at least one of my scripts as an animated short. To set up a web page, keep a blog about my creative journey and to set up my own artist studio.  Whilst doing this I would also be the best teacher I could be
and bring as much creative inspiration into my lectures as I could.
Well  ‘Life’ mustn’t have read that post (or did it?)

I knew this year would be finacialy tight but I was ready. I wanted to take occasional days off from all paid positions, to dedicate to my productions. This could be done because a day without income is better than not achieving my goals.

I would be teaching and working in my studio thats it. So I got my ducks in a row I saved and decided not to spend money in areas I didn’t need to. I was so motivated I was almost levitating.

Then small things started to happen, just little time consuming things nothing big …. I kept trucking on.
Then I had a few finacial dilemmas that popped up which took some hard thinking and some other life things like bereavement and friends in need … but  I kept trucking on.
Determined to reach my goals made me focused, fear of not achieving them kept me moving forward at speed.

Thats when the Truck actually HIT ME!

Well truthfully it was a plumbers van, but you get the idea. My car which was one of my ducks, had been maintained instead of upgrading, so I could keep finacial expenditure down this year. Said car was now a write off.

after accident

after accident

Thats o.k I was insured and not in the wrong …. for the moment I just kept bicycling on … nothing was going to stop me achieving my goals.
The insurance paid out, 1/3 of what I was expecting, due to fine print I didn’t know about.
But I found a little car that would do for now and I could afford, I needed to dip into savings for book number one to do it,
but I was still motoring onslower and not so good up hills but

During all these mishaps, accidents and life journeys I was starting to think I would never achieve my goals. On the surface I was putting on a great show of optimism but underneath my heart and nerves were taking a battering.
My new car needed more work than I thought but that was o.k
…I was doing o.k!
Around me good things were happening that lifted my spirits and motivation.
I didn’t feel I had a right to feel sorry for myself.
So I shook it off and recommitted to getting there.

It sort of worked:

  • the builder had set a date to start my studio renovation.
  • I had finally picked the two stories I would move into the next development faze (this had been a big problem)
  • We had started to look at the different printing options and pricing.
  • I had managed 1 extra day off.
  • I was enjoying writing my blog.
  • I had written new lectures and the students seemed to be enjoying them.
  • The web page was being developed ….. I was achieving the small steps that would eventually lead me to my goals.

But I had a feeling of  something foreboding just out of sight.

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Writing or in my studio my constant companions are my two dogs, Skye and Lilly.
They are always at my feet or on them and have heard many a story draft.
I was coping with the minor set backs I was having but I was still happy.
But then Lilly developed a rare disease and within three days
of showing a small sign of something wrong, she was gone.

“That was it, my heart broke and any forward momentum ceased”.

Not on the public face, I still needed to teach and do my job I had to keep smiling
and trying to be motivating and inspirational.
But all my own creativity was gone and I couldn’t look at any of my work without thinking of Lilly
and the other things that had happened.
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This also made me look at other things in my life with a skewed perspective, which added to my unsettled state.
I knew I needed to change how I was feeling or this would go on
and taint any chance of what I wanted to achieve.
I had taken many knocks over a two month period and I just didn’t know if I could get up again,
so what did I do?
I talked to others around me, who supported me but knew they couldn’t make me feel creative.

Eventually I did what so many others do,
I GOOGLE‘D it.
Search was something like this: ‘How to keep to your goals when things go wrong’
Result: Irritation, anger, and flabbergasted
why is the number one goal on the net to loose weight!

Health is an important goal, but that isn’t just about loosing weight, most sites told me how to refocus on my weight and training…. anyway in the end I did find a couple of blogs and my trusted go to for inspiration TED
to help me enough to feel like I could be normal’ish. (great talk on stress). http://www.ted.com/talks/kelly_mcgonigal_how_to_make_stress_your_friend

If I had written this blog 3 weeks ago it wouldn’t have been pretty and I am glad I didn’t.
At first not doing the blog added greatly to my stress as this is one of my absolutely must do goals.
But working through this over the last three to four weeks has helped me come up with some new ideas for keeping your creativity and sanity a little healthier.

What I have learned and have put into practice.
No#1 new idea: When something happens that knocks you slightly, process it before moving on, or you will make it bigger in your mind.
No# 2 new idea: It is better to keep your goals in a soft grip so its easier to adjust. Things will happen, it’s just life, which is more like sailing than tug-of-war.
No#3 new idea: This isn’t really a new idea I tell my students to do this all the time. I just forgot it for me. When it’s not working take a quiet walk, take a breath then try again. (sounds simple but time to yourself is magic) step away. Time away from your goals is important if you want to achieve them and have a happy life, (actually thats probably idea 3.a).
No# 4 new idea: have faith in yourself, you can deal with and achieve what you need to. Otherwise you will always be looking in the shadows for something bad to happen. Have faith you will manage with whatever may happen and prosper.
No# 5 Biggest old but forgotten, so new, idea: Remember and celebrate the good and wonderful things and people in your life, it makes your heart healthier than any diet and will always help you keep on track with your life goals.
There will be times when you don’t feel creative, thats a sign you need to take time just for you and look after yourself. I also realises that all grief, sadness and disappointment is relative … to you… only you know how it makes you feel and only you can decided the appropriate response for yourself. Remember how you approach the situation will help, but don’t just ignore things that happen.

Yesterday I was going to hear a publisher give a talk about the situation in publishing at the moment.
I was very excited and had been looking forward to it for sometime.
Then a cyclone (small, med) came to town and everything was cancelled.
Was I disappointed, of course?
This must be kept in perspective, people whould have suffered property damage and maybe worse yesterday,
but I just missed a talk.
With my knew way of thinking I just sent a prayer to all those in the storms path
and moved furniture around in my newly built studio. (Next weeks post, will show the renovations)

I haven’t seen the news this morning and I do not know what the storm damage is.
I do know I will  cope and if I need to put down my goals to clear up I will.
What do you do to stay happy healthy and creative when life gets you down?

All my love and I hope you have sunshine.
xx Allie

Nature of things sharable

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original poem and photography. Copyright A.Simpson

Just a quick post with a sharable version of ‘The Nature of things’ my poem posted last week. I have been asked to make a poster type image of the poem so it could be shared easily. I will do this with future poems posted. I hope I have done this correctly. If you want a higher resolution version e-mail me and I will send out a copy to you. Enjoy. Allie xx

Grow

I have decided to start posting some personal poetry I have written for myself or others. I find poetry a wonderful catalyst for thoughts and feelings, with my dyslexia I find grammar and structure hard to deal with. So I use poetry to challenge myself a little, but often I write what feels natural for me to say. I hope you enjoy.

‘Fall down seven times, get up eight times.’- Japanese Proverb

This poem was written for a friend who was struggling with life’s troubles. I gave it to them as a gift I hope you enjoy and please share to anyone you think may find comfort in the words. Allie xx

The Nature of Things

By Allie Simpson

Life mirrors Nature,
At times storms brew.
Winds ‘a’ blow.
Lightning flashes.
Thunder crashes.
Snow covers all.
But as with nature,
Once fallen & fellow,
will mellow.
The sun will shine.
Buds will bloom.
Birds will sing.
Constant is the mighty tree.
He weathers all.
Continuing to grow,

Tall.

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My painting ‘Tui Hill’ painted to remind me of my family and where I come from.
Also where I stand (in my mind) to gather strength when unsure or uncertain.